Some days...

Some days the memories of you still knock the wind out of me. At times it can be so intense. So painful. Almost brutal. Some days it’s of great memories we shared together; others can be debilitating thinking of the suffering.

Some days it’s so intense that I just want to curl in ball and hide from the world. It makes me realize the amount of pain that I hold onto everyday. The pain of missing you. The pain of wishing that I could’ve done things differently. It is a pain that will never go away. It is the pain of loving you so deeply, that it shattered me into a million pieces.